Dec 23, 2010

Legacy of Cain


What’s the meaning of it all?

When in the end, all we do is fall…

The nightmares rule our thoughts,

The ending is just a text in a book.



Forgotten names, forgotten faces

Forgotten thoughts, forgotten places



The lies we say, a fool might worship

The names we slay, the fool might cherish…



I cast away the names you gave me,

I am the Death that always stalks thee…

And when you’ll pray in tongues of venom,

The words you’ll say reflect lost wisdom…



But when you’ll die, I’ll simply smile,

Damnation is the price you, we, and they

We pray, we hope…

We are deluding ourselves we’ll never pay...



Behold your thousand deaths I carve upon thee,

I am the first and last,

The god you’ll not obey,

The monster in the window,

Slowly awaiting your decay,

You mortal coil, of all that’s gone astray...



I am the sword you love and cherish,

I am the shadow that you love and hate…

Beware the final touch, when all you are,

Ends up in a grave…

Dec 16, 2010

Memoirs Of A Rotting Corpse


I am the beast born inside my own nightmare

From which you find no release

I am the victim of my own making

The serpent his own tail thus eating



The worlds of darkness calling

Hear the whispers of the damned

A cold touch that pulls me over

To the place I know and loathe…



My soul thus my body leaving,

To the place of my own deceiving,

Journey inwards to seek my faded light,

Futile quest, for long ago the light has vanished



The proper delusion, perfect by design,

Who’s the master, who’s the slave?

I seek not answers, I seek not reasons,

Redemption is but a dream away.



Here, in between worlds,

Where the darkness meets the light

………………………………………………

[There are three paths and two I cannot take

The price I reckon is still too high



Thus I give myself back

To the rotting shell of flesh,

Hungry waiting my soul to devour,

On and on, until the last piece is gone…



The hellhound that holds his own leash,

Banished by all I loved and feared,

My hell is only what I feel,

The road to darkness thus begun…]

Dec 13, 2010

How To: Build Your Own Religion



Just for a while,

Spread your darkened wings,

Just for a smile,

Cover the world in blood.



Just to see how death can taste like,

Cease to breathe

And die,

Just to prove them wrong.



While you’re dead,

Dare ask the gods

What is the truth?

Where is the lie?



There is no answer,

That can make you

Abandon all hells,

And maybe smile…



And if they answer,

Pray come back to life

Confess the lie,

And teach the man the only truth.



Receive the rocks they throw at you

Smile, still wish them well

For each ignorant builds his private hell,

And in the end they will kill you,

Or forget you.



Just for a while…

Nov 30, 2010

Deliverance



Stalking in the shadows,

The darkness is moving,

Slowly,

My soul to the other side.


There where nights of living fire

When time would stop,

Perhaps just for a smile,

But beauty lasts just for a while.


Before you know,

The smile is gone

The body rots away

The stars are cast in darkness…


Prey, be patient, your time

Is sure to come

Deliverance by blood…

Beware the deadly bite!

Nov 25, 2010

The mirror




Paint me a picture...

May it reflect a beauty beyond all reason,

Give it a face that would thrill,

And the eyes that can kill...



The body of a goddess, shaped thus to inspire sin,

The voice of an angel, such a shame that pictures cannot speak…

The smile that would comfort the devil,

And the touch that could corrupt the saints, and deliver them to hell…



All of these and even more,

All are made to hide the rotting core…

Unspeakable beauty given to hide,

The absence of a perfect soul…



The picture shall not lie,

The picture would not speak,

The picture is always there,

Hanging and smiling on the same wall.



Unlike beauty, the picture cannot wither and fade

Priceless reminder of another time, another place

The picture contains nothing but the face,

A moment frozen in time, as if a moment could last forever



Abandoned in one’s own mortality,

We turn our eyes towards the past,

Back to the age when all had purpose,

Before the time when beauty lost it’s meaning…



Wake up! Sometimes our dreams are nothing but nightmares… The picture is your mirror.

Perfection?




Perfect boy… perfect toy

Is it wrong to be perfect,

As long as your inner core

Is nothing but twisted?



Wish not for an absolute,

One word label,

Such a heavy burden

Pay not the price for ignorance!



I write and pray, that you,

The one that reads,

Can see beyond the shroud,

That covered your eyes…

Just like a cloud.



The devil hopes tonight

That humanity commits no sin

His mistakes, thus, shall be forgiven,

His eternal banishment, forgotten…



But mankind disappoints,

Night after night and day after day,

The truth that is, the truth that was,

Human kind is born just to betray…



I dare ask you again the same question:

Isn’t it wrong after all,

To strive for a perfect shell,

Forgetting to nourish one’s own soul?



Each living thing builds it’s own hell… taste the irony… enjoy!

Nov 17, 2010

Of Love


Bury my soul in your sin,

Sweet delusion born within,

Nothingness is what spawned you,

In nothingness you drown me...



The mistakes of the past

Return to haunt us,

Harm us, torture us,

To become what we once where...



Impossible dream,

Lay before us the path

To the supreme destiny,

Perfect purpose without meaning...



Touch our clouded minds,

Comfort our tormented spirits,

Abolish the pain of yesterday,

So that tomorrow can bring the new one…

Nov 14, 2010

Serpentine



Serpent, crawl beneath my skin,

A serpent lies inside your womb,

The serpent leads, the woman follows,

The serpent spits, the woman…

Follows


Lay your mind at rest

Your soul, soiled by the serpent

The serpent am I,

The serpent is blind...


Serpentine, thine skin runs cold…

Through the ashes,

The future unfolds,

Darker days lay at my feet…


The master bleeds for the slave,

Twisted reality of a dying god,

The snakes shaped the world

By their image, cold, unfathomed…

Nov 10, 2010

Quiet Room




Mortal wounds and mortal dreams

All they are trapped between the screams

Shadows roaming,

Senses burning

Nightmares moving

All between these walls of hell,

There’s no denial,

A girl was crying,

A shadow passed right through my core,

Demons smiling,

And all the spells where in my head,

Dark was hell,

But I was darker,

As I bound it in my spell,

All the dying gods where kneeling,

Before I made them become nothing…



Colors are bleeding, the worlds are shaking

Screaming, crawling, begging,

That won’t get you nothing

Smile before damnation,

Laugh like never before

Sincere warning: there’s no salvation

And your life will go astray

All regretting just one moment

Madness is a step away

You know the edge, and you adore it,

Let your soul go,

Your body will soon follow…

Nov 6, 2010

Order and Chaos

The immortal’s thoughts displaced our bounded view, …
All things now bore a deeper heavenlier sense;
A clear harmony marked their truth’s outline,
Reset the balance and measures of the world.
Each shape showed its occult design, unveiled
God’s meaning in it for which it was made
And the vivid splendor of his artist thought.

– Sri Aurobindo, Savitri Book VII, Canto V


There is order in chaos,

After all

The nightmares end,

Before the dawn

The angels smile,

Before the fall

All demons are defeated

Before they rise,

You lose your mind,

Before you’re born,

You cannot understand,

Before you live

You are peaceful,

Before you die,

For the final time,

Breathe,

Open your eyes,

Leave them open,

Forever,

Grasp the final ray of light,

Before the darkness,

See my face,

Scream my name,

I will show you the way…



Nov 5, 2010

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 1


There is order in chaos,

After all

The nightmares end,

Before the dawn

The angels smile,

Before the fall

All demons are defeated

Before they rise,

You lose your mind,

Before you’re born,

You cannot understand,

Before you live

You are peaceful,

Before you die,

For the final time,

Breathe,

Open your eyes,

Leave them open,

Forever,

Grasp the final ray of light,

Before the darkness,

See my face,

Scream my name,

I will show you the way…

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 2


There is order in chaos,

The nightmares end,

The angels smile,

All demons are defeated

You lose your mind,

You cannot understand,

You are peaceful,

For the final time,

Open your eyes,

Leave them open,

Grasp the final ray of light,

See my face,

I will show you the way…

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 3


After all,

Before the dawn,

Before the fall,

Before they rise,

Before you’re born,

Before you live,

Before you die,

Breathe,

Open your eyes,

Forever,

Before the darkness,

Scream my name,

I will show you the way

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 4



I will show you the way...
See my face,
Grasp the final ray of light,
Open your eyes,
Leave them open,
For the final time,
You are peaceful,
You cannot understand,
You lose your mind,
All demons are defeated,
The angels smile,
The nightmares end,
There is order in chaos...

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 5


I will show you the way,
Scream my name
Before the darkness,
Forever,
Open your eyes,
Breathe,
Before you die,
Before you live,
Before you're born,
Before they rise,
Before the fall,
Before the dawn,
After all,
I will show you the way...

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 6



I will show you the way...
Scream my name,
See my face,
Before the darkness,
Grasp the final ray of light,
Forever,
Open your eyes,
Leave them open,
Breathe,
For the final time,
Before you die,
You are peaceful,
Before you live,
You cannot understand,
Before you're born,
You lose your mind,
Before they rise,
All demons are defeated,
Before the fall
The angels smile,
Before the dawn,
The nightmares end,
After all,
There is order in chaos...

Desecration


The darkest eyes

Not darker than my own,

Gateways to abyss

That stared at me,

Made twisted promises of bliss


Beauty was just a lie,

Dead white skin,

Stretched over darkness,

The touch of it…

Made an angel fall from heaven


The lips that whispered,

Sealed into nothingness

Cold promises of forever,

The nectar that flown from them,

Made the venom seem so much more bitter


A body filled with all that lust,

One kiss could summon demons,

Legions where at my command

But not of hell, the hungry touch

Made the demons rise from deep within


Purity thus hanged,

On a silver plate,

Delivered unto sinners,

The taste of it…

Made my very essence shiver


The eyes that stare,

The skin that yearns,

The lips that speak,

The hands that touch

The body that hungers,

The soul that fears,

They are all just lies,

That madness delivers…

At last my final desecration is complete…

The demons inside are relentless, anticipating the pain they are about to inflict, for a second they stood still and there was peace. Hallowed pictures lie now covered by the dust and all the ashes of hell, putrid words roll out from my mouth and yet their taste seems sweet, and all that was sacred once makes me lust for blessed decadence.

My world is perfectly deformed, and in the midst of it all, there is no right or wrong, no up or down, no light and no darkness.

There is but pleasure…

Oct 31, 2010

The legacy of angels


Pain is your mirror,

Angel of choice,

Deep inside, you hear a voice,

Cursing the day when you knew peace…


Pain is your mirror,

Angel of lies,

Your quest can only hurt you,

And in the end you fall alone…


Pain is your mirror,

Angel of death,

Alone you reap the souls of men,

Living in a hell of your own making...


Pain is your mirror,

Angel of choice,

Angel of lies,

Angel of death,

All uniquely damned,

Each one of you with different scars,

Guide all your children

To my perfect resting place.

Oct 25, 2010

Dark path


In the dead of night,

Your screams

Sound like music,

The one eternal symphony…



Cross the river of wax

On a bridge made of chains

Bound to your bed, you entered,

Blindfolded, in my dominion…



New born creature of the night,

Walk the dark path,

Enter the realm of pain,

All that you ever dreamed,

Lies broken…



All for pain,

Pain for pleasure,

Your pain,

The pleasure…

Was mine.

Oct 20, 2010

Stories of the Fall



The abyss within…

Such a lovely story,

You never know

When you get drawn in,

And you get to fall from glory,

Doubting all but every worry…



The clouds of smoke surround me,

The smoke is a lie,

The kind of lie that hides me,

The kind of smile that blinds you,

The kind of touch that soothes you,

Just for a while…



The monster stays in the shadows,

The lover gives all away, except his pain

The killer smiles while the deed is done,

The child cries and goes to sleep,

The Reaper swings his scythe,

And thus your ride to hell begins…


Oct 16, 2010

Thoughts of the fall


Fade out into nothingness,

For into nothingness you are born,

The moment you opened your eyes,

You cried out for darkness…



To be human, the prelude to hell…



There is no redemption

This life is a movie that seems to be real

The journey towards death,

That one may call a quest…



Broken thoughts, keep on emerging



We cry because of the season,

We blind our souls to the real reason,

Keep on repeating there was no treason…

Accept who you are, disgusted, do nothing,



After all, we are nothing…



We fear the darkness,

Yet crave for it’s bless,

Where is the meaning,

When we end up becoming



The monsters that we loathe?



Our names, they mean nothing

Our lives, they are less,

Our hopes and dreams,

Pointless delusions…



In the ending credits of our movies,

The others have bigger parts than our own...

Oct 14, 2010

Poisonous Bite


It is said that the thoughts you have before you die, are the thoughts that haunt your entire eternity…



How does it feel to be dead inside,

How would you feel when there’s no place

For your face to hide,

Roaming freely through all nightmares,

From my own, you cannot hide,

In the web of deception and lies

If you’re not the spider,

You must be the fly,

Go on, try to struggle,

To break free, from the deadly trap,

The good little spider waits,

Until your tears go dry,

Then delivers the greatest evil,

It’s poisonous bite.



And all the pain shall fade…



Afterwards, he feasts upon your soul,

Poor little fly, how you’d wish you where dead,

Rather than not feeling the pain of losing yourself,

Like any other dying creature.

Your brain is the last to die…

Oct 13, 2010

Path to oblivion


Fooling around the path

That leads towards oblivion,

The nightmare must begin,

With a kiss and a smile…



There are no promises that one can keep,

But for a while, until the angels weep,

The fools are forgotten, blessed are the weak,

The gift of madness, precious treasure…



Once again, the fool shall kill,

The fool that is, reverting thus

To the fool that was,

Purgatory, your gates thus open



Drown with darkness,

Rest into oblivion,

Just like the fallen angels,

Pay the price, forget bliss…



Curse the man, forget the boy,

Rest upon the illusion of ignorance,

Weak minded fool,

Your blood, the blood you gave,



…shall flow forever

Oct 10, 2010

Whorehouse Blues


third time's the charm...



I'm the one



a doua bucata obsesie :D

January




una bucata obsesie :))

Alegorie

mai multa... lene

Anexa




Comoditatea e totusi un lux necesar...

And then, you are dead


Unleash the dogs of war,

May the land be cleansed,

Of all putrefaction

Human lives are but a distraction



Screaming to live once again

The souls of the dead

The legends and lore,

Shall harm you no more…



The demons are waiting

Patiently, in line

For those who are willing,

Their lives to deny…



Go ahead and try your best,

Lay your body and mind at rest

Your soul’s voyage may begin,

Perhaps you’ll just drown in sin…



No deeper meaning behind your walls,

No brighter days ahead, you’ll try to scream

While your soul still falls,

You’ll think you did it, but you’ll see,



That all you are is just a dream…

Oct 8, 2010

Moarte si grimasa...


Mergand, sau disperand,

Pe strazi nevinovate,

Din inaltul cerului,

Se pravaleau cugete neintinate



Clipeam, si ei tot cadeau,

Muritori amarati, povesti neelucidate,

Si de astfalt se striveau,

Triste nume, lipsite de fapte



Nebunul radea, si se bucura,

Vedea in fiecare umbra,

Un nume ce n-are sa-l ajunga,

Erai chiar tu pierduta-n penumbra…



Si iarasi tipai, si gemete aduceai

Nebunul zambea si se pierdea,

Acelasi eu, diszolvat mereu,

In marea de fum, dizolvata umbra…



Cristalina chemare, ce leac nu mai are

Se tot ratacea, si ii amintea de-o vaga amagire

Ce-a asteptat, mai presus de orice fire

Zeul crapa, si moartea accepta …



Cine esti tu, cine sunt eu,

Parfumul de zeu, se pierde mereu,

Tu, trista amagire, fara nume sau fire,

In intuneric nascuta, in intuneric pierduta…

Oct 7, 2010

The Weight Of A Needle


The needle went to far

The needle went to deep

No more secrets that she could keep

Broken thoughts won’t give her wings



The pit is gaping down between her legs

To drown all beasts, and to start the feast,

Dance of the dead, smell of decay,

Roaming free, yet trapped inside a nightmare



Your nightmares reach into my dreams

No will can trap what one can feel,

Lying there, in your hospital bed,

Dreaming of past mistakes, wishing to be dead



Your end won’t reach you,

The deeds of death, forever meant

To haunt your thoughts

And on your cross, your name


…shall fade

Oct 6, 2010

Amintirile unui pumnal


Fata zâmbi şi-i spuse te iubesc,

O lacrimă-i curse naivă,

Gândurile au prins conturul nemuririi,

A oftat pentru ultima oară,

Retrăind ceea ce a fost odată,

Ucise baiatul ce încă visa...



Neştiutor, pierdut in altă lume,

Rămas uitat acolo,

Rătăcind în nebunia sa,

Uitat prin fantezii nebune,

Smulse pumnalul, făcând astfel loc,

Sângelui să curgă din inima sa...



Amintirile pumnalului de argint,

Creat spre a ucide,

Hrănit mereu doar cu sânge,

Mângâiat de mâini reci,

Spălat mereu doar de lacrimi

Instrument perfid ce naşte doar durere



Dar drama sa, cine poate a înţelege,

Atunci când nu ai puterea de a alege,

Scopul tău fiind dat de mâna ce te poartă,

Când doar să aştepţi poţi,

Pentru a cunoaşte a ta soartă,

Neputincios aducând, moarte peste lume



Visul său era sa fie operă de artă...

Oct 4, 2010

Porcelain


Whispered word inside a dream

The name that can change one’s scream

Essence so frail, your beauty,

Must be handled with care…


…it might break



A crack on your mask,

So much can reveal,

The reasons that elude me,

For the thing that could not be…

…perhaps to soon



The mirage that was,

The failures and torments,

All, buried in the past,

Time to wear another mask…


… of porcelain



Wasting away just one more day

I wished to much to be real

The delusion made me kneel,

And then, there was nothing else…


…to say

Oct 1, 2010

Ashes Of The Fall


Crippled and tainted

By the last glass of wine

All memories faded

Like all scars do in time...



The fall before the rise,

Rise that precedes the fall,

Nothing matters,

Nothing ever ends



So be it sorrow, be it joy

All that ever begins,

Ends, and after all,

What’s the difference?



Between a boy and a toy?

Sep 30, 2010

Umbre Pierdute Prin Fapte...









Oameni si basme, eterne fantasme,

Amagiri mondene, stupide probleme,

Tarfe neregulate, scrisori aruncate pe ape,

Betii solitare, drame nesatisfacatoare…



Licoarea ce curge, un potop ce m-ajunge,

Drama ce vine, un strigat in multime,

Dar ceea ce conteaza, o aroma de iarba,

Ce tot nu aude moartea ce vine…



Si striga , dar nu cheama,

Visul cu aroma de iarba,

Moartea e erecta, nepasatoare,

Dar vin, pentru nesabuitul,



Mort, ce invie…



Iluzia din urma, mortul din turma,

Iluzia fericirii, ce pe mine nu are sa m-ajunga,

Rugaciune tarzie, aroma de ftizie,

Trista adiere, sau pura placere…



Amagiri ce au fost, minciuni,

Revelati amare, sau doar intamplatoare,

In noaptea nasteriii, sau a prefaceriii,

Stiut-am oare ce are sa vina,



Iluzie vivida, sau doar o minciuna…



Asteptand, regretand, sau traind o iluzie,

Moartea pentru o clipa parand ca intarzie,

Minciuni am crezut, traind o confuzie,

Traind, sau regretand, eterna amagire…



Si daca inca sper, in minciuna,

Vis efemer,

Minunea, ce are sa vina

Ce mie-mi apartine,



Deziluzie eterna, de acum inainte,

Numele tau pe veci, in cuvinte,

Amar sa insemne, cand praful ce vine,

Ca praf se ridica, ca praf se asterne…



Frumoasa confuzie , ce nasti deziluzie…

Pierduta in lume, fara tel, sau nume,

Te pierzi in necunoastere,

In vise, sau doar prefacere…