Accursed Lover

"Ah, the eternal refrain of humanity. Pleading ignorance, begging for mercy. "Please, help me. I don't understand." This is the life you chose, Joseph. All the people you hurt, all the appetites you indulged. You have destroyed your own innocence, allowed your flesh to consume your spirit. You are your own king, and this is the Hell you have created for yourself.”

Hellraiser V: Inferno

The sun has set; the sun has died

My eyes are blindly looking for a light

The world I live in, became darker

My hope is lost, along with the light

Chained within the darkness,

In a world this dark and cold,

My only salvation in the hands of another,

That I’ve forsaken so long ago…

Alone I break my soul against the walls that I’ve built,

Waiting for a day… my bones won’t break, my skin won’t bleed

But how could a day still come when my sun is dead and gone?

The irony does not escape me: the architect of this hell I am…

Here, at the edge of everything, I gaze into the abyss,

The abyss avoids looking back at me; it cannot stand what it will see

The perfect vessel of despair, and the supreme container of

That which might kill a man, a saint an angel and a god

The ever-devouring mix of love, hate, rage and despair

An ocean of each, I would say

That only a drop is enough to destroy a world

I curse, I hate, I love therefore I remain…

               Your accursed lover

Beast Within

There is a beast hidden in plain sight,

The beast offers release, instincts and power,

All that he asks for is freedom,

All that it cares for is blood...

Feel the beast inside,

Scratching away all sanity,

With pain and pleasure,

Torturing until the point of death...

No way to ease the longing,

Except the release of madness,

The animal craves for freedom,

To devour all worlds, abusing their desire...

The smell of prey enrages sweet decay,

For all he lusts, for all he wants,

To tear apart sweet flesh until it rotts away,

The animal is hidden from your sight...

Fed up with silence, seek your release,

In the tender arms of your beast,

Unleash its thirst upon the world

For in the end you'll be found willing...

Chaos

White souls, and dark souls,

All dimmed by the ashes of the fall,

Gathered round the flames of perdition

Engulfed in the abyss of forgetfulnes

Chaos is just another name

For a different order,

The serpent coiled around

Your soul, will doom us all...

There was an eclipse in paradise,

The angels were hidden in fear,

Saints running for their lifes,

Scared that no god answered their prayers...

And just like that, the darkness in hell,

Was shattered by a burst of light,

The demons blinded by a forgotten memory,

A taste of things that were,

A taste of things to come...

[Chronicles of the Fallen] The Forgotten Angel

And the eight angel, poured his vial into the souls of men,

And immortality was taken from them,

And given unto the beasts of earth, fire, water and air,

And power was given unto them to rule with teeth and claws

The Forgotten Verse

Morbid memories of a past that died

Rotting visions of a future that could have been,

Long ago when there was still a soul

Inside these rotting bones of mine

The future hastens, the road ahead,

Are to be chosen randomly

Life, usualy decided by the roll of the dice,

My path was carved in stone

Too long ago, before all that, and even further,

The Golden Path was laid,

Before me,

A test for the strenght of mind.

There will be a time,

When all the words shall fade,

Allowing the worms to devour,

The final dreams,

Of a world that dies

Death in the Mirror

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

Do you see death puting its hand on you?

Do you feel the smell of sweet decay,

And do you picture the place your body will lay...

Down, forever?

How do you think it will happen?

Will it be the friend that lied,

The girl that cried,

A stranger on a dark road,

Or just a simple mishap?

What else would come to happen next?

Who will carry your soul to eternal rest?

Will it be the hordes of demons,

Or blissful choirs of angels?

Tell me, human, do you think you'll pass your test?

Will you sink away in silence,

Or become a raving star of light?

Will your warmth empower reason,

Or your darkness inspire madness?

Answer this and I will depart...

Decadence

A scent of sin

Carried by the wind

Cold touch bringing pleasure

A lost memory I forgot …

How to treasure

The night comes in pieces

Empowers the soul to dream

Bits and pieces of broken wings

Darken a forgotten memory of the rain,

…reign of Chaos

The tentacles of darkness

Are clouding the earth

Corrupting slowly

The last decadent sanctuary

…in Paradise

Of Light and Shadows

By thy cold breast and serpent smile,

By thy unfathom'd gulfs of guile,

By that most seeming virtuos eye,

By thy shut soul's hypocrisy;

By the perfection of thine art

Which pass'd for human thine own heart;

The Vision Bleak - A Curse of the Grandest kind

The words of another,

Delicate whispers of sin,

Flowing softly from darkness

To surely die in the light...

Cleanse my soul with your hate

Purify my thoughts with venom

I remember a boy in the snow,

He alone, playing with the wolves...

Graves of hope and graves of lies

Beneath them all, you’ll find the light

Entombed by faith, the master screams

To be released once again upon this world.

Compelled by shadows,

Razor through the crowd,

Tormented by deeds to come,

Whisper my name, so I would remember…

Perversion

Deadly whispers of the days to come,

Mute reminders, of unseen strings,

The strings that bind us,

Shall bind us forever in our curse…

The nightmares haunt us, grow stronger,

For our blood and tears, feeds their hunger.

The lesser man weeps before his gods,

The stronger man subdues them…

Absolution is a point of view

Carry your burdens proudly,

Weep not for those that harm you

Weep not even for yourself

Kneel before the image of pain,

Weakened by the course of fate,

The deeds of death are in fact deeds of life,

Waiting, to be reborn cleaner than before.

Sin or Absolution

Death or Birth

Light or Darkness

The same to Me…

Distortion

There is a devil in me, I know him well

The angel on my shoulder weeps on and on,

The fate that lies ahead of me, fights to remain unknown,

The Darkness I left behind me is all too far away…

Perhaps I’m in the same place like yesterday…

But is it the same place in the grand scheme of things?

You can only be in a place one time and one alone

There is no returning, no taking back the deeds that are done…

For a tortured spirit, to become a demon,

There is but one step, releasing himself thus from the pain of flesh,

The joys of the past and the final hope for the future,

Embracing hate and lust for all that lasts forever…

Destroy what you love, for never you shall find it

All could be so very clear, hide behind the mask,

Weep for what you shall become,

Let your very essence go, then live forever to regret it…

Reality is distorted, reality is disorder

Perception is madness, memories are chaos,

Life is what we dread and what we hope,

Madness thus becomes the purest form of reason…

Slipping conscious...

There is no sacrifice without blood,

There is no soul without tears,

I want to know all souls,

Therefore I shall drink all of your tears…

There is no gesture lacking a meaning,

There are no lies before your reaper,

The lady with the scythe knows all,

In the moment she sips life from your soul...

Sweet oblivion, I know you, I’ve seen you

So close that time, just for a moment,

My mind was alone, there was no torment,

It was but peaceful darkness dragging me away...

A suitable place for my tired bones,

My own piece of hell where no mortal shall intrude,

Damnation is measured in the lies we believe,

What dreams may come, shall come and go…

Graven Image

II,27: There is great danger in Me; for who does not understand these runes shall make a great miss. He shall fall down into the pit called Because, and there he shall perish with the dogs of Reason.

Aleister Crowley, Book of the Law

Crawl between your own thoughts,

The worms shall bathe you in their sins,

Whispered words from a graven image:

“Salvation faded from your grasp…”

The dust of past beliefs,

Is to be laid on our graves,

The angels are to perish,

As I close my eyes and make my wish…

Storms and thorns of yesterday,

The blood that floods the past,

The tears from that future nightmare,

All shall fade like it never was…

Prepare your bed for eternal rest,

Perhaps you’ll dream, perhaps you’ll scream,

But after all the deeds of death are done,

You’ll close your eyes in shame…

Legacy of Cain

What’s the meaning of it all?

When in the end, all we do is fall…

The nightmares rule our thoughts,

The ending is just a text in a book.

Forgotten names, forgotten faces

Forgotten thoughts, forgotten places

The lies we say, a fool might worship

The names we slay, the fool might cherish…

I cast away the names you gave me,

I am the Death that always stalks thee…

And when you’ll pray in tongues of venom,

The words you’ll say reflect lost wisdom…

But when you’ll die, I’ll simply smile,

Damnation is the price you, we, and they

We pray, we hope…

We are deluding ourselves we’ll never pay...

Behold your thousand deaths I carve upon thee,

I am the first and last,

The god you’ll not obey,

The monster in the window,

Slowly awaiting your decay,

You mortal coil, of all that’s gone astray...

I am the sword you love and cherish,

I am the shadow that you love and hate…

Beware the final touch, when all you are,

Ends up in a grave…

Memoirs Of A Rotting Corpse

I am the beast born inside my own nightmare

From which you find no release

I am the victim of my own making

The serpent his own tail thus eating

The worlds of darkness calling

Hear the whispers of the damned

A cold touch that pulls me over

To the place I know and loathe…

My soul thus my body leaving,

To the place of my own deceiving,

Journey inwards to seek my faded light,

Futile quest, for long ago the light has vanished

The proper delusion, perfect by design,

Who’s the master, who’s the slave?

I seek not answers, I seek not reasons,

Redemption is but a dream away.

Here, in between worlds,

Where the darkness meets the light

………………………………………………

[There are three paths and two I cannot take

The price I reckon is still too high

Thus I give myself back

To the rotting shell of flesh,

Hungry waiting my soul to devour,

On and on, until the last piece is gone…

The hellhound that holds his own leash,

Banished by all I loved and feared,

My hell is only what I feel,

The road to darkness thus begun…]

Deliverance

Stalking in the shadows,

The darkness is moving,

Slowly,

My soul to the other side.

There where nights of living fire

When time would stop,

Perhaps just for a smile,

But beauty lasts just for a while.

Before you know,

The smile is gone

The body rots away

The stars are cast in darkness…

Prey, be patient, your time

Is sure to come

Deliverance by blood…

Beware the deadly bite!

Quiet Room

Mortal wounds and mortal dreams

All they are trapped between the screams

Shadows roaming,

Senses burning

Nightmares moving

All between these walls of hell,

There’s no denial,

A girl was crying,

A shadow passed right through my core,

Demons smiling,

And all the spells where in my head,

Dark was hell,

But I was darker,

As I bound it in my spell,

All the dying gods where kneeling,

Before I made them become nothing…

Colors are bleeding, the worlds are shaking

Screaming, crawling, begging,

That won’t get you nothing

Smile before damnation,

Laugh like never before

Sincere warning: there’s no salvation

And your life will go astray

All regretting just one moment

Madness is a step away

You know the edge, and you adore it,

Let your soul go,

Your body will soon follow…

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 1

There is order in chaos,

After all

The nightmares end,

Before the dawn

The angels smile,

Before the fall

All demons are defeated

Before they rise,

You lose your mind,

Before you’re born,

You cannot understand,

Before you live

You are peaceful,

Before you die,

For the final time,

Breathe,

Open your eyes,

Leave them open,

Forever,

Grasp the final ray of light,

Before the darkness,

See my face,

Scream my name,

I will show you the way…

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 3

After all,

Before the dawn,

Before the fall,

Before they rise,

Before you’re born,

Before you live,

Before you die,

Breathe,

Open your eyes,

Forever,

Before the darkness,

Scream my name,

I will show you the way

Order and Chaos - for dummies - part 6

I will show you the way...

Scream my name,

See my face,

Before the darkness,

Grasp the final ray of light,

Forever,

Open your eyes,

Leave them open,

Breathe,

For the final time,

Before you die,

You are peaceful,

Before you live,

You cannot understand,

Before you're born,

You lose your mind,

Before they rise,

All demons are defeated,

Before the fall

The angels smile,

Before the dawn,

The nightmares end,

After all,

There is order in chaos...

Desecration

The darkest eyes

Not darker than my own,

Gateways to abyss

That stared at me,

Made twisted promises of bliss

Beauty was just a lie,

Dead white skin,

Stretched over darkness,

The touch of it…

Made an angel fall from heaven

The lips that whispered,

Sealed into nothingness

Cold promises of forever,

The nectar that flown from them,

Made the venom seem so much more bitter

A body filled with all that lust,

One kiss could summon demons,

Legions where at my command

But not of hell, the hungry touch

Made the demons rise from deep within

Purity thus hanged,

On a silver plate,

Delivered unto sinners,

The taste of it…

Made my very essence shiver

The eyes that stare,

The skin that yearns,

The lips that speak,

The hands that touch

The body that hungers,

The soul that fears,

They are all just lies,

That madness delivers…

At last my final desecration is complete…

The demons inside are relentless, anticipating the pain they are about to inflict, for a second they stood still and there was peace. Hallowed pictures lie now covered by the dust and all the ashes of hell, putrid words roll out from my mouth and yet their taste seems sweet, and all that was sacred once makes me lust for blessed decadence.

My world is perfectly deformed, and in the midst of it all, there is no right or wrong, no up or down, no light and no darkness.

There is but pleasure…

Dark path

In the dead of night,

Your screams

Sound like music,

The one eternal symphony…

Cross the river of wax

On a bridge made of chains

Bound to your bed, you entered,

Blindfolded, in my dominion…

New born creature of the night,

Walk the dark path,

Enter the realm of pain,

All that you ever dreamed,

Lies broken…

All for pain,

Pain for pleasure,

Your pain,

The pleasure…

Was mine.